Well, as it comes into september... The holidays are nearly over
the end of the holidays come with the start of my second year at college o.O

bloodi hell!!!!! the stress the pain and all the work again for another year... till i can go to university... why? so I can do even more stressful education, only this time more intensely. sheesh its not good to critisize your own life, you only come out with negative things :/

Any whoooo, yeh Ive neglected my DA account a while now and my messages keep filling up with hundreds of deviations, most of which i just click as read :s, but now im back and im submitting again and doing/planning a fair few collaborations with samuriafreelance

Things happening in the real world?

Well something to be happy about is im getting the hang of my new graphix tab...

but as always theres more things to be upset over... like:

My girlfriend is on holiday seriously I miss her soooooo much it hurts
My hard drive bust - thats over 5 gigabytes of music, 168 episodes of naruto + films + FMA episodes... all my programs gone (gigabytes and gigabytes of downloads ) and most of all... all of my backed up college work :S
they wipe the college hard drives every year, so i put all my stuff on my hard drivev and not a CD... And now ive just lost it all omfg!

I have no money... im officially poor at the moment... work owes me money and they arnt ringing me i keep getting in touch with them and they say "we'll ring you tommorow with work" they have both my mobile and telephone number and each time I make sure im in or near the phone so i dnt miss them... I have no missed calls and no voice mail messages... also i email them with no reply... FOR GODS SAKE i just want money damn you...

which means i cant afford my martial arts classes very well... im a blue belt red tags in "TaeKwonDo" and that means im quite a high grade and therefore should be doing my classes/training 2/3 times a week without fail... well at the moment im hard pushed to afford one time a week, without begging off my parents for money.

- which means im also getting paranoid that im getting unfit... ofc this is untrue I cant just "get" unfit and im still doing classes and training at home and excersizing... but that somehow doesnt take away the paranoia ^_^ lol

any how ill stop my rambling...
I was going to start this journal with saying "mood/Music" ect

but my mood is crap... im bored and a pissed off with work, so putting mood up is pointless if it people read it and think "whining tosser" plus i cant put "music" up since I cant listen to most of my music right now... my hard drive getting wiped has seriously affected me i aint had music for nearly a week now... *claws his way to the dark corner and hums to himself*